After

Honestly, I can believe I'm writing a blog at 2AM in the morning. But you know what should you blaming? The fucking book After!!!

I was actually catching up with books right now, whenever I have free time during work and the one I'm currently reading right? BEYOND CRAZY! I don't even know why I'm still reading it.

Little introduction, I have this small infatuation with Wattpad series (you know, those online fan fiction or self-publish books).  Honestly, there are few that I'm hooked right now because some of them has a great story beside the face that the way it was written is stupid. Anyway, I was actually contemplating on what to read next, considering the last book that I've read is Ugly Truth, which is BATSHIT GREAT!!!Definitely topped my list! You can't just follow that kind of book with some mediocre, it'll ruin you! So while strolling around the book section of Publix (I know!), actually trying to find a hard bound of Ugly Truth, I saw the book. It definitely piqued my interest when I notice it. I know I've read it somewhere that that was actually a One Direction fan fiction in Wattpad and it was just recently published as a book. Well, considering my unconditional love for Young Adult books, plus the fact that it was a famous book in Wattpad, I decided to read it.  Thought that should be enough to follow Ugly Truth. However, still not sure if I'm enjoying it or I despised it, I continue to read the book and now I'm on the 2nd book!

You must be wondering, if I didn't like the book, why not stop? Why not delete the freakin' epub and moved on? Honestly, I can't quite decide the answer for those question. I like some of the parts. Actually, LOVE the kilig parts of the book. But most of the time? UGGGH!

I mean, first things first, when you read the book and you've read quite a lot of stories on Wattpad, you can honestly smell the Wattpad ambiance on the book. Seriously! The book has been written poorly, that you'll just say to yourself..."Well, that escalated too quickly!". However, that's not the part that infuriates me.

The heroine on the book? FUCKING STUPID! I can't even decide where to begin!

She's so stupid
She's batshit crazy
She's freakin' fucking jealous about EVERYTHING
She defies every rule she made for herself
She's SO STUPID
She's rounds up falling to a routine of breaking up, crying, falling in love, blah blah, blah
She just can't learn her freakin' lesson!
She doesn't want to rely to people but do it anyway.
And did I mention she's stupid??

I mean, DUDE! Can't you see the pattern? The two of them will bicker, they'll miss each other, they'll share sweet things then they'll start fighting over something stupid and will repeat that process all over again. Also, the hero always ask her to give him ONE LAST CHANCE but how many times did he just crumple that chance? Honestly, with all things that the hero has done? You should've left. Go as far away as possible. What should she do with the sexual tension they surely have? Throw it in the gutter!

Oh did I forgot to mention, the fact the "she did not want to be hormonal teenager" but she acts like it? The freakin' first time they've been intimate with each other, she's all ready to throw out her V card. IN A FREAKIN' STREAM!! How crazy is that? One more thing that I forgot to tell you? She's a fucking cheater! I can't even begin to explain how messed up the story is.

Oh! We can't just let the hero go! He has a shitload of stupidity in his hands too!

The way he turns hot and cold
The way he drinks himself to death but holds the "I DON'T DRINK" idea.
The way he tells her how he love her, after they had a fight!
The way he keeps on saying "fuck her" rather than using "make love" or "sex" is just so intimate (sarcasm intended)

Honestly, I was so ready to just finish the book, then leave it as that. But just when I was so sure of leaving it. The book ended the most predictable yet heart-clenching way. I still blame myself for still reading it but c'mon. I just can't!

However, this books has proven that it won't get better! I mean, after all he has done? After those unexplicable things that has happened?

All those lies.
Those betrayal!
Those stupid decision he has made
The constant "heartbreak"
And most of all THE HUMILIATION.

I just can't fathom why would she even consider getting back together with him!

Oh! And boy did I forgot to mention the fucking mother in the story? How she constantly push the heroine to her ex boyfriend. How she didn't bother to just let everything slide and comfort her daughter just like what a normal mother would do. The fact that her daughter is a complete wrecked but she just wants the heroine to continue her life just as how they plan it in the beginning. FUCKING CRAZY.

Anyway, long story short. DON'T EVEN BOTHER MAKING THE SAME MISTAKE THAT I'M DOING. It's just one of those book series that you love to hate but still can't stop reading it.



TAPP

TV-rama

Oh yea! Definitely writing ahead of time! Catching up for years (or months!) that we lost. So… topic…topic...topic…………………. TOPIC! TV fucking shows!

Since I migrated in the US, this has become my constant. I’ve grown fond of spending most of my time, binge watching all the TV shows that I can watch. It’s my personal slice of heaven!

Oh, don’t get me wrong… I tried some new stuff. I played tennis, I read more books, I blog (wait... scratch that! We all know I didn’t even try :) ), hell, I even tried baking…BAKING!! But no, my heart belongs to TV SHOWS ♥ and with my newly found best friends: Netflix, Hulu, Shush and Amazon Prime… I just found my routine. I know I may sound lonely, or crazy but c’mon! who doesn’t love good ‘ol TV shows! And when I say shows, I mean A LOT! Back in the Philippines, I used to watch a few handpicked TV shows: How I Met Your Mother, Gossip Girl (both ended while I was still in PH), Glee (which ended just recently), New Girl (2 seasons! But I’m catching up!!), Awkward (Thank you Camille Co for introducing this), and of course, (the ever so teasing, forever cliff-hanger, once every TWO FUCKING YEARS) Sherlock BBC. Well, I tried Community but… ehh.

So when I discovered my best friends, ALL HELL BROKE LOOSE. My first victim? Dear ‘ol Suits! I mean, WHO CAN SAY NO TO HARVEY FREAKIN’ SPECTER? Hotshot NYC lawyer who can close everything! And I mean it, EVERYTHING! Bet he can even close me. Ha! Kidding! That started my addiction. When I finally caught up with the latest season of Suits, I moved on with the next… The Vampire Diaries! Probably, my first kryptonite (After Gossip Girl) since I binge watched 5 freakin’ season non-stop! And also, it’s IAN FUCKING SOMERHALDER. Who wouldn’t want that? But like all good things, it didn’t last. So my next target? Once Upon A Time. Honestly, at first I found it silly. You can’t blame me! The first episode is mostly fairytale plus poor SFX but you know what got me? SHERIFF YUMMY GRAHAM (Did I just say yummy?!)!!! When I saw him, my first reaction was “That’s gonna be Christian Grey!!!” But spoiler alert… he died. Then there came CAPTAIN HOOK! So I continued to watch it. Oh, oh! Have you watch the current season finale?? UGGGH! All the emotions and feelings that comes with! Anyway…

After that, it just came natural.. By the time I'm done with OUAT, the tv show season started (you know, that time of the year when most TV shows starts with a new season or one start with a series premiere). So my addiction? Gave me list of shows to watch. :) First on my list? The Red Band Society. Well, it's not actually something that I would've watched in the first place but weeks of watching from Hulu (and all the freakin' ads), TRBS series teaser just caught my attention. Also, it just so happened that I have nothing to do during it's timeslot. Plus, the idea of staying tune in a series over TV excites me! :) You know, I'm used to binge watching series or just downloading or streaming it over the internet. But watching it directly from TV? It amaze me! So... I started to watch TRBS. Turns out, I actually do enjoyed it (plus you can't deny the fact that Dr. McAndrew is sizzling hot!!). Unfortunately, FOX thought otherwise and cancelled the show halfway. Anyway, after that? Gotham came to my list! However, still haven't caught up after watching 2 episodes. I'm planning to, though! Before season 2 starts!

Then, The Flash came to my life! That actually started my obsession with spin-offs. :) While watching The Flash, the story of Arrow intrigued me. So... Arrow happened and boy did I enjoyed every single moment of it! :) I was so in loved with Oliver Queen! As in! Plus, you can't hide the fact the Arsenal is one hell of a hottie, too!

I won't bore you with the details of all other series that I'm watching right now (I know this has been too much!) but the rest of the series on my list right now are The Originals (The Vampire Diary spin-off), Happyland (just one of those teeny-bopper chick flick series with Sadie from Awkward's exboyfriend is the lead actor), Unbreakable Kimmy Schmidt (one that I thank Netflix for!), Constantine...

Oh! And before I forgot! FREAKIN' Supernatural!!!! It actually started with my friends obsession for it, then I just had nothing to watch at that time. So I finally tried to watch it. Turns out, the hell I would love it! DEAN FUCKING WINCHESTER and all. :) Definitely one of my favorite! Plus this started my unhealthy infatuation with Jensen Dean. Ha!

Anyway... long story short, TV series has become my obsession and definitely not regretting any minute of it. It keeps me company whenever I'm doing some errands. Even kept me company when I am on break too! HA! So if you read more and more about TV shows from me for the next 1984238 time, you would have to bear with me! :)

TAPP

Reintro...

I can’t believe it! It’s been ages since I changed my blog name (switched from The Pink Huckleberry  to The Asian Pepper Project) yet I haven’t posted anything! Gaaahh!

So… Why The Asian Pepper Project?

It kind of originated back when I tried to setup an online shop. You’re supposed to have a good name for a shop, right? Thinking it’ll become big (of course, I thought it’ll be big. What kind of owner am I if I thought otherwise?), I thought of using a name that’ll have a good ring when you mention it and at the same time classy.

I want something hot... Spice.. spice is hot… but not classy.

Spicy… too obvious.. also not classy.

Pepper! Shouts the proper amount of hot and classy!

Next, me… something that I can add to pepper but it’s me.

Asian! I’m an Asian… Asian Pepper sounds good!

And that’s how you create a name for your business. Unfortunately, I’m not a good business woman. Well, I’m too shy to be a business woman.  So…

That leaves us to this. Since I spent a night thinking of that name, I don’t want it to just be a thing of the past and be forgotten. Hence, the blog name. Plus, The Pink Huckleberry doesn’t have a good ring on it.

Anyway, name aside. I think it’s just proper to reintroduce myself. Still Iola Sabio, nothing’s changed in that. Oh! But did I forgot to mention that I’m not a Parrishan? Yup! You read that right. I’m now living in Par…rish! :) Parrish, FL to be exact. Currently living with my parents(whose been living here since I turn 18) and my sister’s family, including my two nieces (whom we adore the most). Basically, I graduated last Apr ’14 finishing with a Bachelor’s Degree in Information Technology(why thank you) then migrated here as soon as I have everything I need and the rest is history.

Oh, I also have a job! True story: it’s basically a late 21^st birthday(which kind of lame, by the way. No booze… house party with none of my friends… celebrated as a dual party with one of my sister’s friend’s farewell) gift for me since I was hired almost immediately after my birthday. About my work? Let’s not talk about that, shall we? Or at least not yet.

Anyway, long story short. I’m still me, trying to live as a normal person in Florida. Separated with my friends and the life that I’ve grown comfortable with.

I think this time, I can try to update the blog more often than not. I won’t make promises but I’ll try!

Thanks!

TAPP

(Hell yes! Definitely using that one! :) )

Love Confusion

Does anybody know the real meaning of love? Can even give a definite definition of it? Can you say you know what it is once you've experienced it? I, myself is wondering about these stuff. 

I have read an original composition that made me think of these things. While I was reading the essay, I constantly ask myself if I've already fallen in love in any way. My answer is: I don't know. I've never been in a relationship nor in a confusing commitment. I don't know if I should be thankful or miserable about this.

Yes, I've been infatuated a lot of times and I can easily admit that. I've been infatuated with someone's physical appearance, with someone's humor, with someone's angst and with someone's personality. I even been infatuated with someone's small gesture for me. But I can't directly say that I've fallen in love in one way or another. I've said I'm in love while having crush with someone but can you count it as falling in love? I don't know. I always thought that I only say those things because of the spur of the moment. I've been infatuated to the extent of doing martyr things for a man. I even do a lot of crazy stuff just because I like a guy. But can you say that I've fallen in love? I still don't know. I've been disappointed because of infatuation but I've never experience severe heartache. According to the essay I've read, that's a way to tell if you've been in love. So does that answer my question too?

They say the life expectancy of an average person is 60 years old. That means, I've already lived a third of my life. It also means I've been single for 20 years now. Do I really need to have a relationship to experience love? I don't know. I often say that I love being what I am right now and I'm not disappointed for not having a partner. I don't even pressure myself in having a relationship now but honestly, I want to experience love. I even want to experience heartache. They say that gives you knowledge in living your life, I want that. 

I don't know the point of this post. All I know is that I've been inspired with a statement of a man. It pushed me to give a thought about my life. For that, I thank him. :) TPH

Monday Madness

It's been a while since my last post. Well, what's new? I visit this blog everytime I think I need to express something that I can't express through the 140 characters of twitter.

Well. What now? Why did I blog? I had this very frustrating experience this morning that thought me a lesson. NEVER EVER BE LATE.

I slept late last night. Maybe that's one of the reason but I guess my habit of napping after sleep that caught me. I was already awake at 4am. I was even able to talk to my brother about something. Now because of my very irritating morning, I forgot what we talked about. Oh, I even complain about my dozen of alarm for me not to late. (But then again, I was late). So I took a nap right after I talked to my brother, I was even able to tweet something. Then, the next thing I remember, I was up by 6:30.

When you hear it, it doesn't seem so alarming. It's still one and a half hour from my expected time in. So I took a bath. I even had the chance to choose an outfit that would make me pretty. (Well, if I was not this haggard). I finished prepping at 6:50. Okay it's kind of alarming. 1 hour is never enough for my travel. So I rode the usual jeep going to LRT. When I arrive at Roosevelt. That's when my misery started. WTF IS THIS FCKING LINE??? Not only that LRT is controlling the no. of people already, the end of the line is already at the end of the market. Seriously, I won't be arriving Buendia anytime soon with that kind of line. So I thought of another route. The only think I was able to think is the España route. Thinking that my only problem with that is traffic, I took the risk. So I took another jeep going back to Pantranco. I paid 100 pesos of course thinking of having my change. So I kind of panic about the time and all. I wasn't able to think straight. So I arrive Pantranco, I immediately rode off the jeep. I was now waiting for an FX, shuttle of even bus going straight to Buendia. THERE WAS NONE. So I felt the BV already. Then I thought of riding a taxi then I suddenly remembered. I FCKING FORGOT MY CHANGE. So I curse and curse while waiting for an FX, regret everything. But I tried to forget about it and tried to wait for FX again. I WAS SNATCHED OFF AN FX FOR THREE TIMES. I mean, seriously? What could be worst than that? I was late. I won't catch my 8am call time but I can arrive 9am. So I decided to take any FX going to España because I know FX and shuttle from Cubao are all going to Buendia.

So I already in España. WTF?? ALL FX AND SHUTTLE GOING TO BUENDIA CUT TRIP IN MORAYTA. I still tried to wait for an FX. I was able to saw two, the first one just forgot to take the sign, the other was again snatched off. So I fcking settle myself with a jeep going to Vito Cruz. But then I forgot that it's en route to Mabini.

So fine, I am in Mabini, I'm almost late, so I decided to take a bus when I got off in V. Cruz. But I don't have cash. So I tried to find a bank and that's where I'll got off. I was able to see one BPI. But I'm still far from MOA. So I skipped that one and find something else. Again, THERE WAS NONE. I tried to find a BPI or PNB but there was none. So I just got off at V. Cruz. There was still no bank and I saw a taxi. So I just rode that one and went straight to my office. I SPENT MY COLLECTION MONEY. I felt so heartbroken about what I did. But I don't have a fcking choice.

And that's the end of my BV Monday. Sorry for my trying hard English. I wanted to use words that can describe my experience best but there are some English words that can't be as expressive as those Filipino words. And sorry for all my "so...". Hihi. And oh, my internship place is in Solaire. So imagine all my adventure going to MOA. 😊

TPH

I don't know what I'm doing

My current work in my OJT inspire me for this post. Since we're currently making blogs, poser accounts, forum accounts for our "SEO" job. I just suddenly felt like blogging again. Maybe because, there's no one to talk to right now. Someone who can let me express everything I feel without neglecting me in the middle. PROBLEM. Here we go again, I again have this f*cking big problem. I'm currently having hard time choosing what to push through with my career. I already have a job but my job is not as IT as I expect. I wanted another job, or simply another company. I don't know if by problem is my job or the company or am I just feeling lonely since I don't have any girl friend working with me anymore in the company. I hated my work, or do I just hate doing nothing since we're still being oriented with our work and it bores me.

What I did to solve this problem, is that I for another job. A job much related with my course but when I came to their company, I saw all the negative possible careers I'm heading to. Don't get me wrong, the company name is good, the equipment can really help me to learn more about my course. But my only problem is the working environment looks like a service center. Then I talked to one of my classmate that has already started his OJT in that company and he told me that the work suits the course but you will never get the satisfaction of being an IT Professional when you work with something like that. 

I suddenly remembered my craziest encounter with an IT specialist. Actually my first encounter with an IT specialist. He's working on SM Appliances, he helps the customer choose what appliance to buy. He explains every specs of each appliances. I suddenly felt shivers in my whole body. I'm currently a freshmen or sophomore that time and my first encounter of a guy working in the same field as me works in an appliance center doing talks like a salesman. I don't look down to salesman or whatever, but my field is different from their field. I don't see myself graduated with Bachelor Degree in IT and then working as a saleslady in an appliance store. I see myself working with Google, or Intel, or Facebook, or any IT related company. I want to be an innovator. And then I was back in the office of the company I was applying for. I feel like I'm heading right where I was trying to avoid. Though, the boss is really nice.

So I was torn, if I should just continue my job in a company I like but I hate the job or if I should work in a company I do not prefer but I like the job? But I guess the real problem is not that question but who should I ask to help me achieve a decision that I will never regret in the future. There are people talking to me about the problem, but all they say is to go to whatever my heart feels or worst, they just keep on asking me what should I do. I can't even talk to my family, since all they tell me is to settle my OJT so that I can finish in time.  I wanted to talk to the right person but when I thought of someone that can help me, that someone never contacted me. Well, she tried but then just before I tell her what my problem is, she hung up. Sometimes, I thought that they are like that because I was never a good friend. That I don't deserve their care since I never expressed my care for them. But why do I feel that I at least deserve some? I always hear stories from them about their other friends, I just get jealous. I always thought "what did I do wrong to deserve to be neglected?"

I don't know. Sometimes, I just try to forget all these stupid thought but it keeps on coming back. Now, I thought that maybe it's already time to let go. To move on. To let go those things that I kept on holding back.

PS: Forgive me for my emo post. I'm so depressed while I write this. ;)

TPH

Holidays, Oh Holidays

Oh, hello 2013. It's been three days since we all welcome this new year with a bang. I mean, literally with a bang especially for us Filipinos that never missed the chance to celebrate New Year with fireworks and firecrackers. Even though it's rather dangerous to use it but of course, we're all hard-headed. Well, as for us, the highlights of our Christmas and New Year is this: 

Our attempt of having a complete family by Facetime. :) The four of us here in the Philippines celebrating Christmas together plus my eldest brother and sister plus my only niece celebrating it in Florida. ❤

And of course, another family picture for New Year together with our meal for the Media Noche. :)